5.29.10 (_______)

take this longing from my bones to ease the pain of being alone to get over having loved and lost to forget the nights our bodies lay crossed take yourself out of my dreams i'm tired of being haunted by a memory i'm tired of waking up alone i'm tired of the nights, so cold give back all of the love you stole i think it's time for you to go return to me all that you owe and my heart will once again be closed so you go your way, and i go mine though i still think of you all the time and though i'm sorry i can't have you for my own i'll carry on as i have always done

5.12.10 ( september 17, 2009(felt like shit about not writing for a while, ended up have you as my only inspiration))

i saw you from afar,
and it twisted my insides
i exited the car
and stared deep into your eyes
and we grabbed each other
and we held and we held
like it had been forever
 you whispered i love you,
infidelity in my mind
we sat close on the ride home,
the most vulnerable ride i've ever had
i felt like i could collapse
and die at your side
well the pleasure is all mine
 when we got home,
we said hello
we ventured downstairs
we kissed, we made love,
and i can still smell you on my pillow
some nights it's almost too much,
too many memories
tears well up in my eyes,
at the thought of your name,
your face, our time
i only wish i really knew
the way things turned out
so cold, so cruel
laying here, on a couch, alone
i've never felt this far from home
i guess that it's gone

5.12.10 (6/26/08)

when i hear your name,
i want to cry
there really was no reason
why we lost you
so young
 we drank too much
and way too fast
before we knew
it would be the last time,
we would see you
 I remember waking up,
still drunk
kind of hungover
and then my heart sunk
when i saw you
 tears fled
to my leaking eyes
when i saw your face
i couldn't help but cry
for you, you left
too soon
 and now i know
i'll never forget that day
no i will not ever
forget your name
gabe