i will
bring
smiles
to as many
faces
as i can,
and soon
mine will
return
and we will
smile
together.
2.28.12 (feeling)
I've come to wonder about feelings. We all feel things, but what if we feel differently? Like how one person can feel for another, and the other feels nothing in return, or how there are subtle differences in tastebuds. People interpret things in different ways, like people taste or feel differently. Does that mean that none of us will ever feel the same as eachother?
2.28.12 (∞)
if everything
else
in existence
can get
infinitely smaller
but never
completely
disappear,
are we
the same?
will a part of me
exist forever?
else
in existence
can get
infinitely smaller
but never
completely
disappear,
are we
the same?
will a part of me
exist forever?
2.28.12 (stress)
stress
is killing me.
i'm losing sleep,
waking up in a
panic,
feeling anxious
throughout the day.
drinking
made it disappear
for a while,
but then it
made things worse.
i need to stop running.
is killing me.
i'm losing sleep,
waking up in a
panic,
feeling anxious
throughout the day.
drinking
made it disappear
for a while,
but then it
made things worse.
i need to stop running.
2.28.12 (better times)
i keep telling myself
this is normal.
there have been
better times,
but there have been
worse ones too.
but then i think about it
and i'm not so sure.
just another day,
another month,
another year.
this is normal.
there have been
better times,
but there have been
worse ones too.
but then i think about it
and i'm not so sure.
just another day,
another month,
another year.
2.28.12 (consolation prize)
i've grown weary
of being a toy,
a play thing,
someone's consolation prize.
it happens
far too often.
i'm a distraction
for yet another
lovelorn girl.
and when they
come my way
i do the same
unto them.
we all
lose.
of being a toy,
a play thing,
someone's consolation prize.
it happens
far too often.
i'm a distraction
for yet another
lovelorn girl.
and when they
come my way
i do the same
unto them.
we all
lose.
2.28.12 (better)
i'm trying
to rid myself
of distaste
and of unsettling
feelings.
i'm trying
to get better,
to be a better
person.
i keep saying this,
but i can't tell
if it's working.
to rid myself
of distaste
and of unsettling
feelings.
i'm trying
to get better,
to be a better
person.
i keep saying this,
but i can't tell
if it's working.
2.28.12 (never)
i'm tired
of "maybe next year
will be better."
each year
has it's ups
and it's downs,
but it's never
good enough.
are we all
impossible
to please?
of "maybe next year
will be better."
each year
has it's ups
and it's downs,
but it's never
good enough.
are we all
impossible
to please?
2.28.12 (shame)
i don't know
why
i get so
ashamed
of how i feel,
but it makes
everything
so much
harder.
i can't even
ask for help,
or just an ear
maybe a shoulder.
i get too attached,
then i lose it.
and then
i feel more
ashamed.
i'll just keep
hanging my head,
chewing my nails,
faking a smile,
here and there,
and hope
that this too
will come to pass.
why
i get so
ashamed
of how i feel,
but it makes
everything
so much
harder.
i can't even
ask for help,
or just an ear
maybe a shoulder.
i get too attached,
then i lose it.
and then
i feel more
ashamed.
i'll just keep
hanging my head,
chewing my nails,
faking a smile,
here and there,
and hope
that this too
will come to pass.
2.27.12 (sky)
the sky
has a way
of making me
feel alright.
i long
to share this,
but it's alright
viewing it
alone.
has a way
of making me
feel alright.
i long
to share this,
but it's alright
viewing it
alone.
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