8.11.2014 (for larry)

in dreams, i saw your eyes, cold.
in the morning, i gazed through cracked blinds, at the pale blue sky.
in the afternoon, i thought of death and of you, pale blue.
in the evening, i watched the sky grow cold, twilight.
in the night, i saw your eyes, in cloudy skies, peering through the bottom of my glass.
in time, you see, love forever lasts.

7.24.14

a promise made
like silent vow
sprung from lips
through screams + shouts
dream together
dreams never end
silent shaping
a distant friend
still in dreams
lost in your head
losing sleep
in a strange bed
stillness grows
and weighs on your skin
strength divides
lost inside your eyes
dreams of a future
far without me
a promise fades
distant memory

7.5.14

Knuckles bloodied

A tree again

Another argument

For what?

I can't recall.

I was drunk 

Sober she. 

In a strange town

Feeling strange.

My mouth still tastes

Like whiskey. 

Three more cups of coffee

And maybe I'll wake up.

6.28.14

Some bar

Some airport 

Killing time

Time kills

Eager, anxious

Still

Tired, drunk

Still. 

Hours pass

Like seconds.

Future memory 

Reminders past 

Sitting around

Finish last.

The World Cup

Plays on the tv, 

But I am elsewhere 

Mind, body, nothingness. 

Take me home,

Put me to bed,

And when we wake,

We will do it again.

2.8.14

Some velvet morning

Another night no sleep

The day drips past

Slip back into dreams

Among strangers

And grey skies

Pacing silently

Strange looks in their eyes

Cold morning in bed

Eyes open wide

The sun creeping through

Thinning clouds outside

Pray for an end

Dark days long nights

The weekend is coming 

Everything will be alright

01.28.14 (a premonition)

Another day you've barely touched me

Another night for melatonin to take you away

I never liked winter
but i like winter light
and there have been
nights colder than tonight
but the street lamps keep shining
through the blinds just right
to remind of days not long ago
with nostalgia's bittersweet bite
miyazaki and mr fox
two times in one night

but you are different
and so am i
i knew that this had changed me
i don't know why i didn't see it had changed you too

Still

12.3.13 (din)

eyes closed
tight
with the warmth of
her body
press'd firm against mine.
still miles between us
still hours
in time.
the din of the fan
the heat
the train
are like voices
singing lullabies
when sleep will not
and cannot come.
fleeting moments
provide nightmares
to accompany
desolate feelings.
memories
that have been erased
still felt.
another argument.
there will be
no good dreams
tonight.

10.31.13 (dreaming)

red leaves

on trees

grace space

round me

as time

still slips

through fragile

memories

the scent

of flowers

jars me from

my dream

through time

still fragile

no ghost

haunts me

9.26.13 (the fireflies dance no more)

those flowers
i spoke too
told me to wait
for early mourning dew
past drunken hours
spent, curled in knots
through withered mem'ry
long forgot

summer's end
the fireflies dance no more
the air it chills
round the step of my door
but light, still, dances
'cross the wooden floor
those flowers, now wilted
remind of words spoken before