I nearly broke my toothbrush in half
Pressing too hard against
My mind was wandering
Writing a song in my head
A time burned into my brain
One that feels close far behind
When you were far too uncertain
And I was way out of my mind
Eyes focused forward
I forged a silent path
When you went silent
I silently planned
A stopover for us to build
A life that we could lend
Our hearts already broken
But still could maybe mend
Before the end I knew it
You didn’t love me for at least a year
Felt it in my everything then
And I still feel it now here
Things began to fall apart
You tuned out, so I zeroed in
I committed to a future
I could only see you in
But that pushed you further
Isolated disparate
Words exchanged led to silence and
You let go of everything
If I’m being honest
When you left I felt nothingness
The wound that you left
Took a long time to fully manifest
It’s a feeling that’s stuck with me
Nothing is enjoyable
Everything feels cheap
When I don’t have you, there is nothing
I get angry when I think this
It feels obsessive to revisit this so
But I watched everything we built
Collapse and slowly crumble
Seems a waste to abandon
But you’ve chosen your path
And our friendship is something
I thought that would outlast
I feel a bit of everything
Saying the things that I have said
I regret saying anything
I kind of wish it would just end
