02.21.19 (phosphene)

Kept your picture on my wall

Didn’t look much at all

It stayed there far too long 

You wouldn’t care what’s wrong

Spending hours frenzied and frantic

Always strung out, hopeless and manic

Every night you haunt my dreams 

Every night I’m clenching my teeth

Wake up alone 

This house is not a home

There is no reprieve 

I hope you never leave

Dreams and desires can be torture

A lifetime spent regretting no closure

Forever is a four letter word

I don’t think I can say it the same again

Feel time peel it all away

I worry I’ll forget your voice 

Or that the memories 

Will all fade away

Spending hours frenzied and frantic

Always strung out and manic

Every night you haunt my dreams

And every night I’m clenching my teeth

Wake up alone 

This house is not a home

There is no reprieve 

I hope you never leave

Try to steal your gaze from afar

But even the smallest words feel forced

So many years are gone

I hope it’s not over