07.23.19 (the doldrums)

How does one
Differentiate
Between the lack of pain
And the lack of will to 
Feel. 
I do not
No longer feel
The things I felt
Moreover
They have begun
To seep into my skin
And now it feels as if
I wear them constantly.
It’s this familiarity
That puzzles me,
In that I have these
Waves of despondence
But moreso
I’ve settled into a sort of 
Apathy of spirit.
As if the doldrums
Extend on forever.  
I almost want to feel nothing at all
Because I no longer care to feel.
I know that’s impossible,
But it feels like I’ve lost the will
To feel.

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