5/24/09 (drunk, bored and lifeless blues)

feeling lonely in my room again i feel an ache inside my head as i try to calm down and go to bed but instead i crack another can and think about girls past i feel like i've been had it's the end of may and yet i'm still afraid of all the bills i've got to pay the rain won't go away each day more glum and gray my cloudy grave i fear the month of june will come far too soon friday at noon girls i never thought i'd miss are in my thoughts; so crisp please get me out of this and so i lay down in my bed these thoughts still swirling round my head and now i wish my brain was dead