9/21/08 (pt. I)

i left your world to join another but now i'm clouded, and torn asunder i feel i'm drifting on an endless sea and all i want is for you to like me but i don't think that you feel the same and it's worse cause i know i'm the one to blame so now my stomach's slowly sinking cause i never know just what you're thinking and i know i never really did but i want you to know i feel like shit and while you're miles away still having fun i'm laying here, just feeling stunned i buried myself in a grave full of loneliness, despair and hate because i blew it then, and i'm blowing it now oh! if there's a chance, please tell me how i know i'm stupid and kinda lame but i feel i've always been the same so please take it easy on my brain will you tell me you're tired of playing games because believe me girl, i'm tired too and all i want is to lie in bed with you or am i just another night inside your head just another body nestled in your bed i really hope that i am not cause if that's so, then i'll surely rot but i don't think you're that kind of girl but i don't really know, i think i'm gonna hurl... blech!